An Experiment With Myself

Now, this is an experiment I did, please do not try this if you are sensitive and emotional, as you are bound to get hurt.

Now imagine a woman in your workplace, a beautiful woman, for example, now she's well-read, conservative, the perfect girl-next-door kind of girl. She's 5 years younger than you and loves dogs. Too  much details, anyways, so, she has a similar work profile as you except she is a freelancer and you are an employee.

Now, earlier you were a freelancer at the same place, but, at that time she was really new and you thought she had an attitude problem and she was too young to talk to so you let it slide.

But, now you decide because of the age and the attitude she might be the perfect person to experiment.

AS nobody likes people who have an attitude problem.

The experiment, you get a little friendly with her, for a few days and you stop talking abruptly, to see what happens.

Now, I did the same I got a little friendly with her, and she sort of had an accident the same day. You feel for her a little bit, just a little bit of the care someone has when they are infatuated with someone and they get hurt. You immediately feel the need, to run to her and help her out and you do.

Somewhere inside a little part of you smiles, thinking, maybe you made her realise that you do care for her, but you brush it off, as you never really liked the girl.

For the next few days, you give her a warm greeting each time and somewhere down the line, the greeting gets colder each day, until when it stops abruptly.

You face each other sometimes now and you exchange glances, but you sort of ignore each other.

You think she did have an attitude problem so you let it slide.

But each passing day, you get increasingly fond of her, but she doesn't show any signs of fondness towards, just like you don't, of course.

One day you declare the experiment a failure, without any solid conclusion.

Because an experiment has to have a solid result, a solid conclusion, maybe she has feelings, maybe I have feelings, maybe not, maybe they'll stay, maybe not, so, you just keep your feelings bottled up to see what happens eventually, and nothing happens, even though you are working, when you sleep at night you think of her, but as you have to wake up early, you divert your mind somehow and go to sleep.

Now in the experiment she was a specimen, but somehow you too become one, one day you brush off these feelings and the experiment becomes a failure.

Why I say do not try it?

Because you might not be able to handle it. I did, but you might not.

This experiment proves one thing, don't get friendly with the wrong kind of people. It might hurt later, a lot.